Well, it’s not looking good for our I171h arrival before my trip to Haiti in three weeks. For those who do not understand the Haitian dossier lingo, we are waiting for our final approval letter from the US government. Once we have this letter, we can submit our official file to the Haitian adoption system. As of right now, our social worker must re-submit our home study with some corrections in order to receive approval. To me, it’s just another minor detail to slow up this entire process.
Not only was I hoping to have our approval enabling us to submit our paperwork to Haiti, but I was also hoping to be able to have it in time for my travels to Haiti. I really wanted to hand-deliver our file ensuring its safe arrival. I also was hoping I would be able to schedule my DHS appointment in Port au Prince while I was there in a few weeks. We must complete this step prior to the file being sent to the IBESR ~ Haitian Social Service Department ~ where the “real” adoption process begins. In this department, our file gets a “number” and officially begins going through the adoption system. However, carrying my file down will have to wait, we will have to schedule our DHS appointment another time and our file will not enter the adoption process just yet.
Normally, I would get frustrated and discouraged with all this. I am, however, to the point with this adoption where I have learned I have no control and there is really no point to get upset. In a sense, I have thrown up my arms and let it go for the sake of my emotions and the sake of this entire process. I am not at all giving up; I am just not letting it control my well-being or me. There is not a thing I can do to make this adoption process speed up or go more smoothly. There is not a thing I can do to ensure our boys come home in a time frame to my liking. So, I just have to let it go and let the process take place.
In the mean time, I pray. I pray for peace with this lengthy process. I pray for my boys until they are able to come home. I focus my prayers on my family’s growth and changes at this time, a well. I also ask the Lord to provide the boys, the orphanage and our family with all needed to carry on each and everyday. Finally, I pray to God asking Him to take all of this. I have completely given this to Him and pray I can continue to do so. This adoption is in His hands and must remind myself of this everyday.